Mad World...

It was two years and two days ago that both my knees went "snap" and I wound up in a wheelchair for a couple of months. This was an event that was by no means pleasant, but in addition to being a useful learning experience, catalyzed certain events for which I am very grateful, namely ending a terrible relationship. Here I am now then, fully (mostly) in-tact, thinking about my next workout, puttering around the house in my accustomed manner (and in my slippers as well) and trying to piece together what's next.

Stability has been the word of the year, but now that I've got it in my job, in my personal life and am well on the way to having it financially, it's time to start thinking more about the next one. I've got a certain clear-headedness going from not drinking for the past 22 days-- though the associated not going out late as often probably has more to do with it than alcohol consumption-- and I've certainly got more time on my hands. I've started volunteering and I've had some interest from a recruiter for a job that would be a step up a corporate ladder I've little desire to climb, but the fact is that every dollar I earn now is a dollar closer to being out of debt. I may not be in a relationship, but at least I'm catching up on my reading. My knowledge of middle-eastern culture and politics, religion, American History and micro-economics has never been better. I fear that my life has taken on a tint of normalcy with which I'm not entirely comfortable.

Maybe it's just the lack of intimate human interaction at night, since I'm not going out as much. I don't even have the myspace pretend human contact anymore. I've been seriously thinking about buying a video game system.