I can't keep holding on to what you've got,

when all you've got is hurt.

Today I did not go to the coffee shop to ask the cute girl if she had Valentine's plans

Today I did ask same of my NY/LA friend in an e-mail.

What better way to find out if a woman has a boyfriend?

Today I worked 11 hours in the office and finished the day further behind than when I started.

Today I did not get another tattoo.

Today I woke up, thought of her and her last Valentines day when I was away in NY and smiled. I realized that she would want to talk to me today and, for some reason, felt it would be via a text message, which she hasn't tried yet. I wondered if I could delete a text message without reading it.

Today she sent me a text message.

I can delete them without reading them.

Today I missed her some, and wondered a little about what she wrote, but mostly because I think I know exactly what it was, and sometimes it's re-affirming to be spot on.

Today, I had ethiopian food with friends and freaked out some poor vegetarian girl by being somewhat crass at the table. I don't believe in breaking people in slow.

Today I was mad at myself for the part that still wants her to call, that still wants the evidence of how selfish she is to pile up in my favor. Then I realized that this feeling would not go away until she stopped calling.

Today, I realized that soon I will have to move, change my phone numbers and my e-mail all at once.

Today I went to the gym and tweaked my back a little.

Today, they almost moved my friend and cubicle mate away to another desk, but then that one was full so she came back.

So that was today.